It’s ok to not be ok

The message above is from @commandinglife, a website and Instagram page that shares regular inspirational readings, among other things. Some of these readings have been ringing especially true for me recently. And I don’t believe in coincidences.

More on the June 6th one shortly. For now, here’s another:

 “[H]ave faith in a positive outcome despite what you currently see. Never accept temporary struggle as normal…don’t let worry keep you from expecting your win.”

Hint: I’m a worrier, at least by nature.

And finally:

Why did these reading resonate with me?

I’ve been having a hard time. And I know someone needs to read this to confront their own such difficulty.

It’s hard to admit that’s happening. Often difficult to admit to others. Definitely difficult to admit to casual friends. Even difficult to admit to those friends and family closest to you. And sometimes even difficult to admit to yourself.

In this era of social media envy, related anxiety, and of course FOMO, saying “I’m having a hard time” can be hard. Really fucking hard.

And it’s still necessary.

To say it. To say it out loud. To say it out loud to someone you care about who will listen and support you.

I’m not necessarily talking about a mental health challenge that could result in a diagnosis like depression or clinical anxiety. Those are important things to acknowledge and seek the help of mental health professional, such as a counselor, therapist, or psychiatrist. Been there and done that. It’s a wonderful thing the stigma and misunderstanding around mental illness in our society is steadily breaking down. Going to therapy should be a sign of strength and growth, not shame.

I’m talking more about the perceived mundanity of struggling with the challenges of life. Ground down by a series of events that feel more like one more unrequested or undesired challenge after another. Go talk to a mental health professional about such things they might say, “yeah, you’re definitely having a hard time and we can talk about those things. That’s important. But you don’t have a mental illness.”

That’s where it can be even more difficult to say something. When you’re seriously hard pressed by life yet still functioning, at least on the outside.

The last few years have been an interesting mix for me. Both tremendously hard, painful, and challenging…as well as liberating, restorative, and rewarding. There is a profound mix of good and bad.

But you know what? I’ve still been having a hard time.

I’ve had the love and support of some valuable friends and family. I’ve done some hard work on self-improvement and reflection, including facing up to the loss of many things I once clung to or hoped for.

It has not been easy.

Yes, I might look ok on social media. Some of that is because I refuse to wallow in the negative, which is at times feels like a lot to bear, and insist on living, on enjoying what life still has to offer, and to enjoy New Orleans as long as I can.

The Big Easy is an absolutely fantastic city. A town like no other in the United States. Yet, for all its beauty, history, and charm it is not blessed with a diversified economy. Professional life will in all likelihood take me elsewhere. That journey has been part of the many challenges marking my last couple years.

To the quote from that June 6th reading, I’ve been told “no” a lot on that front.

A. Lot.

Which for someone who thrives on positive feedback has been…interesting.  That’s exactly why this part whacked me upside the head:

“The slowdown kept you delayed avoiding a future misadventure.”


Ok, I can deal with that.

This process, and being single, has given me the chance to explore myself in new ways. Who am I? What do I want? What am I truly passionate about? Where do I want to live? How can I maintain balance and serenity amidst troubles and loss? How do I want to contribute to the health and happiness of others in the future? Where can I and where do I want to have an impact?

Those have been immensely helpful questions to sort out, while the series of delays in pursuing other possible landing spots I perceived to be desirable or good forced me to answer those questions in a wide variety of ways.

Amidst it all I’ve been fortified physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually by yoga. Supported by daily and weekly routines that prioritize wellness and staying grounded. Enhanced by reading more, listening to more podcasts, journaling, engaging in some serious, structured self-improvement, and talking things out with some trusted people I care about.

Today my life is a mix of profoundly stressful circumstances…and a great deal of peace and contentment that it will all work out. It might not be the way I would have written the story, but it will still be a good tale.

I’m not doing well. And yet I am. That’s ok. That’s what life has to offer right now as one chapter comes to end and the page is ready to turn.

If that’s you, in anyway, know you’re not alone. You’re understood. And I, for one, will listen to you. Because I know what it’s like to have a hard time.

Are you feeling beaten down and disappointed by life? Feeling frustrated and challenged because things aren’t going as expected, let alone as you might wish?

I know the feeling.

Better days are coming.

How Game of Thrones Ended with a Quiet Thunder

How Game of Thrones Ended with a Quiet Thunder

It all came full circle. The beauty of Game of Thrones is at its core the characters. When the show was at its best it gave us windows into the fabulous personas that made the show special by letting us follow their stories: Jon Snow, Arya Stark, Tyrion Lannister, Jorah Mormont, Samwell Tarly, and many more.

The worst parts of Season 8, especially Episode 5, were a series of at times rushed (if cinematically spectacular) events and action sequences, missing much of the character flow that made previous seasons spectacular. Season 8, Episode 6 did the opposite. A superlative closing of plot circles. For a series with all the splendor of a movie in each episode, the last one did the little things with the characters to be great…even if there is no happy ending and many disgruntled fans.

Let’s discuss:

Drogon – Wait, he’s a character? Yes, much of the show he was a thing. An interesting, powerful, event-altering thing. But a beast. In this episode he becomes a character. He looked upon Aegon Targaryen, slayer of the Mother of Dragons, and he made a choice.

He burned the Iron Throne, ensuring no one would sit upon it now that Daenerys was dead. He carried his mother away from Westeros, after touchingly nudging her to verify her demise and then wailing aloud. In doing so Drogon looked upon the last Targaryen and spared him. I like to think Drogon took Daenerys back to Old Valyria to rest in the Doom among her ancestors.

Tyrion – amidst the hell of the death and destruction of King’s Landing, he insists on seeking his brother. Alone. He finds him, in the arms of the woman he loved. As Jaime prophesied. And Tyrion wept.

Then understanding the possible consequences, Tyrion publicly and forcefully tosses aside the emblem of Hand in front of Daenerys, silencing the Unsullied, because he would not endorse the death of innocents.

He declared to Jon Snow/Aegon Targaryen, “you are the shield that guards the realms of men.” But he’s not talking about the Wall. He’s talking about the wrath of Daenerys. The people of the world need a shield from her madness.

Tyrion is the best of himself at the Dragons Pit. A wonderful physical return to the powerful scene in Season 7 where Tyrion and company brought a wight to show Cersei and Jaime. Tyrion’s plea to abandon rule by birthright produces perhaps the one outcome to halt further bloodshed.

And when Bran the Broken makes Tyrion Hand again as both punishment and reward it is all fitting.

Jon Snow/Aegon Targaryenoh, dear.

If any character stayed true to his story arc it was him. He slays his (Mad) Queen only as a last resort, grudgingly convinced by Arya and Tyrion. He then takes the Black and goes North, but this time not by his choice.

Jon Snow, wearing the Black again.

Jon’s trajectory throughout the show’s seasons was at times glorious, at times maddening. He has regrets, but as Bran consoles him: “You were exactly where you were supposed to be.”

There’s a lesson there.

The horn signalling “Ranger returning” at his arrival at Castle Black was an especially poignant moment.

Ser Brienne of Tarth – her honoring of Jaime Lannister in the Book of the Kingsguard is one of those subtle scenes where even in brevity a lot is accomplished. She saw the good in Jaime. And she memorialized it.

Brienne finishing the pages of Ser Jaime Lannister in the Book of the Kingsguard.

She herself becomes a Kingsguard again. Nodding to her past, her oath to House Stark, and the new Westeros to come.

Ser Podrick Payne – Ser. Enough said.

Ser Bronn of the Blackwater – he didn’t receive much attention in the last season, but he was richly rewarded at the end for his service to both Tyrion & Jaime. Is he perfect? Far, far from it. His last scene is arguing for the rebuilding of brothels in King’s Landing before the rebuilding of ships.

But he served Tyrion and Jaime (and the Realm) all across Westeros with great skill, commitment, and valor. He earned his place.

Lady Sansa – through hellish events and travails, she slowly grew into her path and arrived at her destiny. A defender of the North, even during the Kingsmoot. She was firm in her defense of and advocacy for her people. Hail, Sansa, Queen at last.

Arya Stark – no Lady is she, by her own request. She is a killer. The Hero of Winterfell. Yet, she does not seek a future in the land she helped save.

Once she has played her part in the resolution of affairs for her family, she commits herself to a exploration beyond Westeros, into the unknown western seas.

The trained fighter. The seasoned traveler. Someone who knows how to make tough goals and pursue them. On a ship to explore new frontiers.

Arya of House Stark, hero of the Game of Thrones.

The End – the very first episode of the series began in the North, amidst the woods beyond the Wall, with House Stark in focus. More than appropriate to end the last episode in the same setting, with the same family.

The closing scene is accompanied at first by a mournful instrumental track. A testament to the fact many, many endings in the show were not happy.

Arya embarks on her journey West with the sigil of her House on the sail. Sansa is crowned Queen in the North in Winterfell. And Jon heads north of the Wall with Ghost, aside Tormund Giantsbane and the Free Folk he saved. Creatures of the North reunited.

And as the last scene fades to black, it is in those same woods as it all began, with the music having gradually morphed from sadness into a rendition of the fabulous opening song of the show that is seared in the memory of every fan.

The song that began each episode played at the last one’s ending.

Not a happy ending, or a perfect conclusion. George R.R. Martin neither wanted nor provided for that. But the circle closing in a fitting way to one of the great shows in modern TV history.

**Cross-posted at the Resurgent.**

The Seahawks are a walking case study in why culture matters

The Seahawks are a walking case study in why culture matters

Professional sports teams are interesting organizations. Yes, our focus is usually on cheering for our favorite team, yet these same teams and the infrastructure around them are often like any other complex company. They have a culture. And how they behave gives interesting insights into that culture and what contributes – even drives – team performance.

Culture does matter. In the NFL, the Detroit Lions and Cleveland Browns have been hapless for many a year while teams like the Pittsburgh Steelers and (sigh) the New England Patriots have been synonymous with playoff appearances and more. How those organizations choose to conduct their business influences quite a bit of what we see on the field.

Take the Seattle Seahawks. I’ve been interested in their culture since their different way of doing things first got attention in the months before their Super Bowl victory. Their prominent use of a sports psychologist, Dr. Michael Gervais, also caught my eye. Even the consulting company created by Gervais and Coach Pete Carroll significantly influences the cultural of client companies with a holistic approach to personal development, similar to how they work with the Seahawks (listen to Carroll on Gervais’ podcast for more related insight).

That background was lurking in my subconscious last night as I tracked what the Seahawks are doing in the 1st round of the NFL draft. They had pick #21 thanks to their finish last season and pick #29 after trading their star defensive end, Frank Clark, to the Kansas City Chiefs in the days leading up to the draft.

As I tracked developments and digested the post-first round media coverage (the remaining rounds of the draft are today and tomorrow), it hit me how what the Seahawks did wholly aligned with their organizational culture. Here’s how:

They’re realists.

Trading Frank Clark was bittersweet. A young, emerging force in the NFL but, one due a huge contract. There are only so many of those any organization can give out and the Seahawks just paid Quarterback Russell Wilson, big time, and need to pay All-Pro Linebacker Bobby Wagner soon as well…among others. Yet, they were clear they wanted to keep the talented Clark. What happened?

Dallas re-signing their own defensive line star, Demarcus Lawrence, raised the market price for leading defensive ends too high for Seattle’s planned budget and the Kansas City Chiefs offered great trade value for Clark. Thus, “we had to help the team and do what’s right for the organization.”

Team first, not emotions.

They’re authentic.

Fans of the Seahawks know the team has its quirks. Carroll and GM John Schneider have specific types of players they want. Often they have unique physical characteristics for their respective positions that fits the Seahawks’ scheme. Usually they have a chip on their shoulder for one reason or another. It’s not uncommon for draft and talent analysts in the NFL to take a different view of some players than the Seahawks, sometimes scoffing at their choices. The Seahawks don’t care.

Which is why after trading down from the 21st pick, the descriptions of who they picked at #29 was not surprisingly someone who very much fits the Seahawks mold: defensive lineman LJ Collier.

Analyst Brian Baldinger raved about Collier as a brawny, on-the-field performer, disregarding the “stupid underwear stats in Indianapolis” as Collier didn’t perform exceptionally at the annual NFL Combine, which might dissuade some traditional scouts.

Longtime NFL scout and head of the Senior Bowl, Jim Nagy, saw the same thing. Collier shows up on the field:

And guess what, Collier has a chip on his shoulder:

Sounds like a Seahawk to me.

They’re focused.

And they stick to the plan. John Schneider likes having lots of picks in the Draft, spread across its 7 rounds. Carroll and Schneider have made a name for themselves in finding high quality NFL talent deep into the later parts of the draft.

Even after the trade with the Chiefs for Clark, Seattle still started the Draft only 5 picks: those two 1st rounders, plus one each in the 3rd, 4th, and 5th rounds.

Virtually the entire NFL knew they were likely to try to trade down at some point. And they did. First out of #21, for which they received a different first rounder, #30, plus two more 4th round picks.

Thus, the Seahawks found themselves sitting on back-to-back picks, 29 and 30, with other teams who wanted to move up to snag a player they wanted falling later than expected in the 1st round knowing the Seahawks were likely willing to trade again.

The potential result? A lot of chaos.

Yet Seattle got their pick at 29 in Collier and traded down again with the New York Giants, this time swapping #30 for picks in the 2nd, 4th, and 5th rounds:

You achieve your goals by being able to stay focused in times of challenge.

They execute.

The Seahawks focus on the plan led to the actions they likely wanted in drafting a player they desire and trading down to secure more picks. But what were the actual results of those actions?

Besides the potential fit of Collier as a Seahawk, after trading down twice Seattle functionally converted the 21st pick in the Draft into a high second round pick, 3 more 4th round picks, and another 5th round pick too. The team with only 5 draft picks before trading Clark now has 8 picks remaining in rounds 2 – 7 even after picking Collier in the first round.

They got what they wanted and they got high value. For the first trade:

And for the second trade:

To be fair, various teams value things different ways, including based on desires for specific players. What’s clear either way is the Seahawks executed against their game plan and got results.

They may well trade down again (or up) in the remaining rounds of this Draft. Not all the players they select will work out. It will take years to assess if this Draft was good or bad for the Seahawks in terms of who succeeds on their roster.

What is clear is the Seahawks have a culture as an organization. It’s specific and unique; and they live up to it. And their performance yesterday was visible proof. That’s fun to see, be that in sports, business, or otherwise.

What we love about Game of Thrones

What we love about Game of Thrones

It’s the characters, stupid.**

No, not because Westeros is a magical world of dragons and knights and white walkers and battle scenes and intrigue. Not even because of the salacious violence and sex, let alone unexpected plot twists (who among us doesn’t still need a little therapy after the Red Wedding?).

It’s the humanity of the characters that creates connection to the show and its tale.

We remember, for example, the incredible Battle of the Goldroad when the Lannister army faces the combined doom of the Dothraki and Daenerys astride a fire breathing dragon. That’s a magnificent spectacle.

And the characters are better yet.

Episode 2 of this last season is nearly devoid of action, yet gripping. Yes, Cersei, Jon, Deanerys, and more continue to play the great game. But, even that quest for power takes a back seat to the characters this week. Lord knows it’s not the splendor of a drab, gloomy Winterfell that draw us in.

It’s not the majesty of Game of Thrones that keeps us watching so eagerly, though it may draw us in at first. It’s the characters and the subtlety of the production.

Subtlety like the unforgettable Season 6 closing scene with Sansa’s smirk as Ramsey Bolton meets the gory death he so richly deserves. Subtlety like the looks shared this week between Jaime Lannister and Brandon Stark as the former faces a hearing before his family’s enemies, the Targaryens and the Starks. You could watch the entire scene on mute and guess the sequence of events just by watching Jaime’s eyes.

Even taking the main figures of this episode not named Jon/Aegon and Daenerys there is a rich tableau of character development and expressions of the spectrum of the human condition to woo us:

Jaime Lannister – the arrogant sister-fucker has redeemed himself. Not 100% remorseful, he mostly declines to apologize for his earlier acts in defense of his family. But as he stands in Winterfell, humbly requesting to join the defense of the realms of men, he says what fans of the show long ago discovered: “I’m not that person anymore.” Redemption indeed.

Sansa Stark – the prissy naif of Season 1 has matured into a Bismarckian realist of a leader, with a touch of Machiavellian ruthlessness. And the trajectory of her hellish journey in between has helped transform her from one of the most annoying characters to one of the most endearing.

Brienne of Tarth – in some ways she hasn’t changed, a character intrinsically true to her nature. Yet, since we first met her at tournament before Renly Baratheon, she has transformed from a wandering soul seeking the right role for herself in the world into perhaps the most honorable living knight in the Seven Kingdoms. And that smile after she was thus honored…

Sir Brienne of Tarth

Tyrion Lannister – how has the lecherous, drunken “whoremonger” of Season 1 become one of the most beloved character’s on the show? His is one of the great character arcs in modern entertainment…aided and abetted by Peter Dinklage’s superb portrayal. His fireside lament to Jaime this week that he cannot return to whoremongering due to the “perils of self-betterment” is one of those delightfully subtle moments that says a lot without saying much at all.

Arya Stark – the dark side of greatness is often overlooked, especially in entertainment. Arya is a great character. She’s also a great killer. And her path to that reality is littered with windows into that darkness.

In her own words this week: “I know death, he has many faces. I look forward to seeing this one.”

She has issues. And we love her for that.

Poderick Payne – the incompetent yet faithful squire of his youth has transformed into a warrior, training combatants under Brienne’s tutelage. Yet, it was the glory of his singing that is the climax of Episode 2. A scene both lovely and haunting on the eve of battle, leaving moist eyes for many a fan.

Jorah Mormont – there may be no greater person of service in the show. He goes from admittedly heart broken at the news Daenerys named Tyrion her Hand to counseling her to forgive Tyrion for his most recent error. “You’re advising me to forgive the man who stole your position?” she asks. 

Yes, yes he is. Showing that the best advice to give is that which the person needs to hear in their shoes, not what you want to say in yours.

Theon Greyjoy – a story of undeserved grace if ever there was one. His crimes against the Stark family merit great punishment, even if not the horrific ordeal administered by Ramsey Bolton. Theon’s return to Winterfell to defend House Stark is a lesson in honoring that grace.

Brandon Stark – yeah, he’s a weird dude now that he’s the 3 Eyed Raven. Really weird. We also got a small insight into how he has suffered to embrace becoming something bigger than himself, and with heavier burdens. One even senses traces of lament.

Yet, as he says to Jaime in the Godswood after sparing Jaime from shame before the assembled alliance of lords and ladies, “I’m not angry at anyone.”

Not angry, and ready to use his crippled ass as bait to draw in the Night King. Remind me not to underestimate this guy.

The Hound – Sandor Clegane is readily hateable in the early seasons. Yet, his character, a walking testament to the inner-conflict facing most of humanity, is a reminder of the good that lurks within even the worst of us…if we’re willing to let it take the reins.

Samwell Tarly – a man with faults. So many so that even as Jon, Sam, and Eddison stand atop the walls of Winterfell reminiscing on the beginning of their time together with the Night’s Watch, Sam still comes in for affectionate ribbing for his lack of fighting skills and appeal to the ladies.

Sam knows what he’s good at: reading, learning, and being there for Gilly; and what he’s not. His gift of “Heartsbane” to Jorah out of respect for the fallen Lord Commander Mormont is an example of honoring your own strengths while empowering others to honor theirs.

Lady Mormont – speaking of Mormonts, if I’m the Night King I might not tangle with this one in the battle to come. She’s a testament that greatness comes in all forms, even if those forms are entirely unexpected.

Tormund Giantsbane – a rascal’s rascal. Yet, the consummate realist. His earlier lament of the human cost of Mance Rayder’s pride planted the seed for Jon’s eventual bending of the knee to Daenerys. And his succinct yet glorious “Fuck tradition” line this week prompts Jaime to knight Brienne. Proof that profound statements need not come wrapped in excess fluff.

How many of these characters will remain with us after next week? Sadly fewer for sure.

Yet that’s why the show appeals. It draw us into these characters. Into all their strengths and faults. Which is why as spectacular as one of the great battle scenes in TV history is likely to be this Sunday, it’s going to be a longer, more drawn out – if entirely expected – martial version of the Red Wedding.

And we’ll all be watching anyway because the show is that damn good.

**Speaking of stupid, if you’re on the internet, clicking on Game of Thrones headlines while trying to avoid spoilers,stop it. People complaining about spoilers on the Internet might be worse than the “Am I the only one who has never watched Game of Thrones?” crowd. Thanks for listening to my TED Talk.

Note: this post was originally published at

One Arizona case shows why criminal justice reform is needed

One Arizona case shows why criminal justice reform is needed

An appalling incident from 2017 in Glendale, Arizona popped into the news over the weekend based on those events becoming the subject of a federal lawsuit. The attention grabber is the tasing of a man during a traffic stop, including pulling down his shorts and tasing him in the testicles after he was handcuffed.

The video is every bit as bad as it sounds in terms of the behavior of law enforcement.

To be clear, this was not simply an encounter with law enforcement gone a little bad. It was exceptional. The original news story link includes a helpful, detailed review of the body cam footage by experts expressing repeated concerns with how the incident was handled from start to finish. In summary:

Multiple independent law enforcement experts, who agreed to review the incident, said the officers’ conduct was unlawful, potentially criminal, and one of the most cruel and troubling cases of police misconduct they’ve ever seen.

“I have never seen anything like this before,” said Jeff Noble, an attorney and former deputy chief of police in Irvine, Calif., who’s testified in hundreds of cases including Tamir Rice and Philando Castile. “ It reminds me of a case in New York where an individual was sadistically taking a broom handle and shoving it up (the suspect’s) anus. This is just beyond the pale. It’s outrageous conduct.”

Former LAPD detective supervisor T.T. Williams echoed his shock.

“That’s not even borderline,” said Williams, an expert witness who testified in the Philip Brailsford case on behalf of the prosecution. “That’s inhumane.”

One might think, gee, this is just a really terrible thing, but it must be a total aberration. In truth, the case, while on the extreme in some sense, highlights a number of issues at the fore of calls for criminal justice reform, specifically relating to how law enforcement conducts itself and likewise holds itself accountability.

1. Officers initiated an unnecessary confrontation. The victim, Johnny Wheatcroft, was a passenger in a vehicle, wearing his seat belt, ostensibly pulled over for a turn signal violation. Officers had no probably cause to question Wheatcroft. They insisted on seeing his ID. He justly declined, as was his legal right. The incident escalated from there.

2. Officers used excessive force. Needless to saying, attempting to pull someone from the car while he’s still wearing his seat belt, ultimately tasing him 11 times, including after he was already handcuffed is a bad look.

3. Officers used inhumane force, in fact. There is no remotely justifiable cause once a suspect is handcuffed to intentionally pull down their shorts and tase their genitals. An officer committing such an act likely shouldn’t wear the uniform again…more on that shortly.

4. The victims in the case were held in jail for months before charges were dropped:

Wheatcroft and [his wife] Chapman , who were arrested and charged with aggravated assault on a police officer, spent months in jail after the incident because they couldn’t afford bail.

Chapman agreed to plead guilty to a lesser charge in order to get home to her children, her attorneys said.

The poor disproportionately suffer because a ludicrous system of cash bail keeps (still legally innocent) people who aren’t a risk to society behind bars for lack of personal financial means. Rather than continue suffer in such circumstances because of the needs of life, Chapman plead to a lesser charge just to get out to her children.

5. Charges were dropped but the accused still paid a steep price. Local prosecutors understandably dropped charges after seeing the body cam footage of the incident, but months in jail and an ultimately unnecessary guilty plea are an awful lot of punishment for being innocent.

6. Law enforcement tried to cover it up. Clearly, charges of assaulting an officer were not appropriate and tardily dropped. But an internal investigation found officers present incorrectly described the incident, including noting the victim of the tasing was “compliant and didn’t resist.” Moreover, even the Glendale Police Department’s press release over last weekend was found to be “full of omissions and information that does not match up with the department’s own records.” All of which is both discomfiting and a very bad look for public confidence.

7. Discipline of law enforcement was wholly inadequate. That same internal investigation found the tasing officer demonstrated “major performance deficiencies” in violation of multiple procedures and guidelines. His punishment? A laughable 30-hour suspension without pay and disciplinary probation. Anyone who thinks that slap on the wrist is appropriate probably thinks the cop who shot Philando Castille was also innocent.

There have been may calls for criminal justice reform in wake of troubling citizen encounters, more publicly available today in the era of body cams and cell phones, with police resulting in unnecessary injury or death. Perhaps sometimes those who are averse to the politics of Black Lives Matter and other such advocacy groups find it easier to dismiss such calls.

There is no racial component to this case, just horrible policing. Policing that must be reformed and improved before the public loses more confidence in law enforcement.

This shouldn’t be a partisan issue.  National Review‘s David French has written well on the evolution of his thinking on this topic, including the need to end “qualified immunity” that too often protects bad actors in law enforcement. The Charles Koch Institute includes criminal justice reform among its top issues, as does the quite conservative Texas Public Policy Foundation.

Indeed, when someone’s rights and freedoms are as badly violated by police as Johnny Wheatcroft’s, the color of his skin and the partisan political implications shouldn’t matter in the least.

This post was originally published at the Resurgent, where I write on more political topics. It’s a right-of-center site, thus the piece was written with that readership in mind.

Hope after a frustrating Seahawks loss


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How the wild card game felt in a pic. Credit: Michael Ainsworth, AP

There seem to be two predominant schools of thought among Seahawks fans following last Saturday’s playoff loss:

  1. Gee, that was a surprisingly good season from what I was expecting. Cool! Looking forward to next year.
  2. OMFG, fire Pete! Draw and quarter Brian Schottenhimer! Why didn’t they stop running the ball against Dallas! I can’t believe they lost! [leaps off a tall building into the gray, damp blanket of sadness of winter in Seattle]

Count me in the optimism camp, even if there is a damn reasonable critique the Seahawks should have shifted to less of a run-heavy approach by half-time against Dallas the way the offense was struggling.

Let’s review the roster by position group to see how well things improved from the troubling and scary preseason expectations of the team. In sum, almost all of the potential tsunami of uncertainty that faced the team before the season has calmed.


Russell Wilson had one of his best years in the NFL, 3rd in the league in passer rating and tied for 3rd in TD passes. He’s efficient and a big playmaker. Other than a pattern of sometimes holding the ball too long while trying to do too much, even with a better offensive line protecting him, he’s an elite, franchise QB. The only question is if they can extend his contract before he enters the final year of his current deal in September.

Running Back


Chris Carson: the new beast in town. Credit: Getty Images

The elusive search for the heir to Marshawn Lynch is over. Chris Carson is an animal, 5th in the league in rushing, even while missing 2 games and splitting a lot of carries. Rashaad Penny proved a dangerous and talented 1-2 punch. Mike Davis has shown enough to the league he’s probably not worth paying in free agency now. Having Carson, Penny, McKissic, and Prosise (probably injured again, because why not?) for 2019 looks infinitely better than previous uncertainty.

Tight End

Another position in flux leading into the season with the departure of Jimmy Graham feels exceptionally settled. Will Dissly returns after an exceptionally promising 4 game start to the NFL before injury ended his season. Nick Vannett led this group in 2018 playing time and has a comfortable place in the rotation. Ed Dickson was solid once he came off IR. That’s a very good 3 TE rotation on a team with an established identity of both playing big for the run *and* throwing to the TE (51 passes for 595 yards and 8 TDs in sum during the season).

Offensive Line

Can you say stability? With the Tom Cable experience mercifully concluded, this unit looks, dare I say, cohesive and effective under Mike Solari. Brown at LT, Sweezy at LG, Britt at C, Fluker at RG, and Ifedi at RT as a possibility going into 2019 is better than any of us could have thought a year ago. Throw in the surprise power of Jordan Simmons and the versatility of George Fant to play 6th lineman/TE and this is a good unit. They could choose to upgrade in free agency and both Sweezy and Fluker are free agents, but the foundation and identity of this group that helped lead the league in rushing is as solid as it has been in the Russell Wilson era.

Wide Receiver

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Tyler Lockett. Playmaker. Credit: Tony Wayrynen, USA Today

Three words: Tyler. Fucking. Lockett.

Really. Wilson had a perfect passer rating throwing to Lockett this season, with Lockett catching 57 passes of the 71 thrown to him, for 965 yards and 10 TDs (plus 4 catches for 120 yards last Saturday).

Baldwin battled injuries throughout the year, coming back to form down the regular season stretch and on Saturday to remind he’s an exceptionally valuable, clutch player. 2017 7th Round pick David Moore emerged with 26 catches for 445 yards and 5 TDs. Pete Carroll raved about undrafted rookie Malik Turner’s growth during the season so expect the team to cut Jaron Brown to save $2.75 million in cap space. Yes, he had 5 TDs, but only 14 total receptions.

Either way, Locket, Baldwin, and Moore look like a great leading trio given the makeup of the team.

Defensive Line

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Frank Clark doing Frank Clark things. Credit: USA Today

This unit was a huge question mark with the retirement of Cliff Avril and the departure of Michael Bennet. Man, did Frank Clark and Jarran Reed deliver.

Clark had 14 sacks, 14 tackles for loss, and 4 forced fumbles. Reed added 10.5 sacks and 12.5 tackles for loss. Clark is a free agent headed to a big payday, seemingly with Seattle given what he, Carroll, and Schneider have said about the matter.

The subtly effective DE/DT Quinton Jefferson is likely to return as a restricted free agent.  The emerging Poona Ford, an undrafted rookie DT who just kept getting more and more snaps as the season progressed (including 34 on Saturday) joins Naz Jones and Rasheem Green as a promising, youthful trio to round out the rotation of a unit that will likely add more talent in free agency, if not the draft.


As Bill Murray said in Groundhog Day, “I’m a god. Not THE God, but a god.” Bobby Wagner could say the same. Another All-Pro year in 2018 added to a likely Hall of Fame career. The only downside? He and Russell Wilson are on the same contract schedule as members of the (stunning) 2012 draft.

Can the Seahawks re-sign Clark, extend Wilson, extend or re-sign Wagner, *and* pay now-free agent KJ Wright what the market will offer for a top tier, at times Pro-Bowl linebacker…all while addressing other needs? Eh, seems challenging. And they already played most of this year without Wright anyway.

Feels like a position the Seahawks keep the All-Pro stud and surround him with economical and emerging talent; especially with how often nickel and dime packages in the modern NFL take linebackers off the field.

Defensive Back

Was there any position with more uncertainty after the implosion of the Legion of Boom? Richard Sherman left with his undies bunched up tighter than Bill Belichick’s smile. The great Kam Chancellor was forced into retirement in all but official name by injury. And Earl Thomas was a toddler playing in an All-Pro’s body once he showed up…at least until he busted his leg again and flipped off the team on his way out the door. Like hell a team that prizes team chemistry and cohesion is bringing back free agent Thomas after that series of shenanigans.

And who would have thought a secondary of Shaquill Griffin, Tre Flowers, Bradley McDougald, Tedric Thompson, and at times Delano Hill, would have been…decent. Even above average (at times). And capable of some big plays.

McDouglald in particular is a huge value as an inexpensive free agent re-signing before this year. Griffin seems to have improved with the pressure of playing lead CB after Sherman’s departure (though he was clearly challenged playing on a sprained ankle on Saturday). Flowers is a 5th round rookie, converted to CB from safety, and potentially headed down the same path of other defensive back finds the Seahawks have mined in the 5th round under Carroll & Schneider: Sherman and Chancellor.

Nickelback Justin Coleman performed well and is likely a re-signing target in free agency. Akeem King draws raves from Carroll after the Seahawks found him in the dustbin of other teams practice squad discards. And while Carroll’s clock management late in the half and stubbornness about the run can be frustrating at times, the dude has a helluva record finding and developing great defensive back talent.

Definitely a position the Seahawks will add to in the offseason, but infinitely more stable and with cause for optimism than when the Seahawks kicked off last season in Denver.

Special Teams

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The NFL’s newest kicking wizard. Credit:

Y’all. Michael Dickson was an All-Pro punter in his *rookie* year. What a find.

Sebastian “what, this is tackle football?” Janikowski was middling at best and seemed to fade in the 2nd half of the season. And a kicker wrecking their hamstring on a field goal attempt isn’t much of a surprise since it looks like he eats a whole pizza at half time and hasn’t had a good fitness regimen since he got pubes. I guess the hunt for a kicker may be on again.


In sum, a potential wayward, wreck of a team to start the year enters this off-season with some questions, but that’s normal for a modern NFL roster. They also have a goodly amount of cap space (though with some big paydays to manage too) and a solid foundation across essentially every position group, where they can choose to complement or enhance, rather than rebuild or reconstruct.

This chart is a useful tool to predict where the Seahawks might focus their off-season capital given Pete Carroll’s clear philosophy of relying on a good (if not great) defense.


 Credit: @hawkblogger

Yet, given where this team was headed into training camp last summer, I’ll take it. With a smile on my face.

Our Broken Understanding of Each Other

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Source: the Advocate

We don’t understand each other. In case you missed our current national turmoil.

Recent anlysis on what Democrats guess about Republican demographics and what Republicans think about Democratic demographics says we get a lot of things wrong about each other. Democrats think Republicans are older, more Evangelical, more Southern, and richer than they actually are. Republicans think Democrats are less Godly, blacker, gayer, and more unionized. And by wide margins.



And that’s from polling originally done in 2015! Does anyone think those misperceptions haven’t gotten better in our current national climate?

If we don’t  understand who people from different parts of the country or holding different view points actually are, how can we understand their experience?

I had the chance to observe someone else’s experience recently: a bail hearing at the Orleans Parish Courthouse in New Orleans.

Imagine seeing someone who has been arrested for a misdemeanor drug charge being held in an orange jumpsuit, with shackles around their wrists and ankles, just for the opportunity to have bail set. Does that feel “innocent until proven guilty”?

I don’t think so.

Imagine being held in jail because bail is set higher than you can afford, again for a misdemeanor drug arrest, thus allowing you to sit in jail for 45 days until the prosecuting attorney might decide whether or not to charge you? Does that feel “innocent until proven guilty”?

I don’t think so either.

And what if at the end of that 45 days, at which point you’ve probably lost your job, and perhpas your home, the prosecutor offers you a plea deal. Maybe you didn’t even do it. Maybe you did, but the evidence against you is flawed and successful prosecution is unlikely. But, you have a choice: sit in jail for months (maybe even years) awaiting trial or take the plea, including accepting the crime on your record, to get out of jail and back to your life.

Maybe you’re even charged with a felony. Take the same scenario, even for non-violent felons. But now the prosecuting attorney has 60 days to decide whether to charge you. On day 61 they offer a plea deal: accept guilt, time served, and go on probation…or stay in jail for months to prove your innocence while your life leaves you behind. That’s a deeply unpleasant choice, with little in the way of justice involved.

What happens with a felony conviction on your record? You’ll have trouble voting. You’ll have trouble getting a job. You’ll be denied public housing, food stamps, and other programs we as a society has agreed would be helpful to give people a helping hand up. Dare I say, to be rehabilitated and productive members of society again.

All because you may have been arrested (perhaps on flawed charges) and couldn’t afford bail for a non-violent offense.

I saw such things unfold during that recent observation of a bail hearing. Add in the brief opportunity for arrested individuals to speak for a few minutes with a public defender prior appearing before a judge to have bail set. Add in the confusion on their faces as the fast-paced hearing moves forward, full of court lingo, and boom…in a matter of minutes, you’re stuck in jail because you and your family can’t afford bail.

So, you might be saying, Eric, that can’t happen. People can’t sit in jail for months or years for non-violent offenses.

I used to believe that too.

Then there are statistics like this:

Overall, [Louisiana Sheriffs’ Association executive director] Ranatza said there are 2,181 people who are being held in Louisiana jails that have been there for a year or more without going to trial. That’s about 15 percent of the combined jail populations of 14,041 people who had not been convicted of any crime yet, according to information provided by Ranatza.

Of those 2,181 people:

  • 1,507 had been held between one and two years without a trial;

  • 448 had been held between two and three years without a trial;

  • 141 had been held between three and four years without a trial; and

  • 85 people had been held more than four years without a trial.

In one horrific case, a man was recently ordered release on appeal for lack of a speedy trial. He had been awaiting trial on a drug charge for eight years!

Yes, New Orleans and Louisiana as a whole is a gnarly place as far as injustice in the criminal justice system goes.

You might also say: “Eric, that wouldn’t happen where I live.”

Really? Police never target minority neighborhoods for drug crime, including petty crimes like marijuana? Black Americans are not arrested for drug possession at disproportionate rates to their drug use even though they use drugs at the same rate as white Americans? You think those same subtle – or not so subtle – levels of discrimination don’t exist where you live?

I used to believe that such discrimination didn’t exist. I grew up white, upper-middle class, in the Seattle burbs, going to a college prep K-12 school. Then I came to New Orleans, saw the abject poverty in historically African American neighborhoods, cursed with the legacy of decades of Jim Crow, a largely abominable public school system, and an economy limping along amidst the lingering malaise, apathy, and corruption of Louisiana. Most importantly, I read the stories of a criminal justice system that is really efficient at over-arresting, over-charging, and over-sentencing…lots of black people. And it’s not right.

And as much as things in Louisiana might be on the extreme end of this problem in America, we’re all on the same spectrum of the problem. It’s just a question of degree, even if our ideals should remain the same.

Let’s remind ourselves of some basics rights in the Constitution and the amendments to protect the rights of the individual and the accused. The 4th – 8th Amendments in the Bill of Rights specifically secure:

  • protection against unreasonable search and seizure
  • protection of due process
  • protection from self-incrimination
  • protection from double jeopardy
  • the right to a speedy trial
  • the right to a jury trial
  • the right to counsel in one’s defense
  • protection from excessive bail
  • protection from excessive fines
  • protection from cruel and unusual punishment

The 14th later added “equal protection under the laws.”

All these things were viewed as rather important, and necessary, for justice in our country.

Now, consider this: until the era of cell phones and body camera, police misbehavior was a largely foreign concept for most of us living in the suburbs or rural America, and sometimes even urban neighborhoods that aren’t poor or dominated by poorer minorities.

Well, there aren’t any cell phones and body cameras in the court room.

So, the next time you hear or read about some horror story in the criminal justice system and think, “that’s terrible…but that would never happen where I live.”

I ask you, think again. Do you really know what the criminal justice system is like? Do you know what the life of someone who grew up and lives in entirely different circumstances from you is really like?

Maybe you could consider how you can find a way to learn more about some part of our society you might not know very well. It might be as simple as seeking out conversation with someone you encounter regularly in your life, who you know hails from dramatically different circumstances.

Now do something about that.

We could all use some better understanding of each other.